Seizures!

Seizures, Work, Relationships, Babies, Death and College!  Now isn't that a good mixture right there?  I will slowly but surely attempt to explain all of that to you in several blog posts.  It might be a tad bit long but just bear with me on these.

For starters, I was reading over this blog again and I realized that there are some really massive things that have happened in my life that I have not mentioned.  I'm not sure if anyone even reads this but it feels better to get everything off of my chest and putting it out there.  I also just like having this to read back on, kind of like a diary.
First big topic... my seizure.  Yes, I had a seizure.  It happened in August 2013, so it has almost been a year.  To make a long story short, I wanted to discontinue taking my old anti-depressant Zoloft and start taking a different medication that was weight-neutral.  The doctor recommended Wellbutrin.  So I started taking Wellbutrin.  I was told after a week or so, if I wasn't feeling any better, they could increase my dose.  After a little bit I went back to have my dose increased and not even a few days after my dose was increased, I started feeling really sick.  I wasn't eating, I felt dizzy, I got really lightheaded and sweaty and felt like I was going to faint.

One morning before work, I woke up at about 1pm and I had to be at work at 3pm so it was too soon to call in.  They would not accept the call off.  So I didn't eat anything and just headed to work.  When I got there, I had to sit down and close my eyes.  The bright fluorescent lights were killing me and I thought maybe I am just sick with the flu and I am dehydrated.  So I started chugging water.  Nothing was helping how I was feeling.  I paged my supervisor and asked if I could go home since I was just training that day anyways.  She told me no.  I started crying and panicking and told the new nurse I was training "I think I'm going to faint" and that is the last thing that I remember before I blacked out.  I woke up on the floor of my work, face down, in the position of a chalk outline on the sidewalk.  I saw all of my co-workers surrounding me telling me everything is going to be okay.  They were putting oxygen on me, putting pillows under my face, rubbing my back, and holding my hand.  I smelt like vomit and I could barely speak or think.  I was so confused.  I heard my co-worker Shefe calling 9-11.  She told the dispatcher that I had just had a 45 second seizure.  I started panicking.  I was told to relax but that is so difficult after you just heard that you had a seizure!  Especially being a nurse!  I was terrified.  I was put on a stretcher once the paramedics got there and was rushed to the E.R.  The paramedic sitting in the ambulance with me asked me if I bit my tongue and I instantly realized why I couldn't feel my mouth.
Upon arrival to the emergency room, I was questioned about 5 million different things and they couldn't seem to figure out why I had the seizure.  They kept telling me it was heat and dehydration but it didn't seem right to me.  Finally they brought in a specialist and when he heard the word Wellbutrin, he didn't need to hear any more.  That was the answer.  This medication that was supposed to be an anti-depressant for me has caused me to have a seizure at my workplace on the unsanitary tile floor.  I stayed admitted in the hospital for about a week while they did more testing on me.  It has been just about a year and I have never been more serious about my health before.  I have stopped all sugary drinks, started eating way healthier, stopped all anti-depressants and started working out more.  It really shouldn't have to take something serious happening to you for you to change your ways but unfortunately for me, I had to learn the hard way.  Although depression isn't something that is MY fault, there are other things to help deal with it other than these dangerous medications.  As a nurse and someone in the medical field, I will never administer or recommend Wellbutrin to anyone.