I've been spending 50% of my time studying and the other 50% screwing around on the computer playing EverQuest II (best friend insisted that I do so) And got me addicted... shit. I've also been working on more paintings and what not for extra cash. Not only that but it helps me escape reality and enter this fluid-like universe where everything can blend together and seem like it makes sense for a while. If I could just paint and love and explore for the rest of my life, that would be amazing. Everyone should have that opportunity. Isn't that what life is about anyways? Why should we spend our precious time given here on work and stressors that are totally unnecessary. I mean, obviously we need money to live a decent life in this world, but if you can do what you love and still make it in the world, why the hell not?
Sorry, I'm really delirious right now haha. I've gotten like 2 hours of sleep, literally, in the past three days. My body is about to shut down on me and I can't really decipher reality from fantasy.
But speaking of being tired and money! I'm taking my NCLEX-PN on March 30th. That's really not that far away AT ALL. And I am more nervous than anything. This is the most nerve racking thing I've ever had to do in my 20 years. I don't know what I'll do if I fail but I also don't know what I'll do if I pass. I'll probably have to sit down for an hour or two just to absorb it and then drive home. Because I can't drive and cry at the same time, haha. But I hope I get a lot of luck from whoever reads these things and, god, I just hope I can make it so I can start my life. I can start my career and maybe in the future become a traveling nurse. It's my dream.
I will update this soon. I promise.
Always,
Stephanie Nicole.
If you dont mind me saying I hope I never dream, because a dream implies you wanting something that you never took the chance on trying to obtain... Heard that in a song once and it changed my view on dreams ever since. Not that I dismiss dreams now but I most certainly do in my perceived context of how you and most people use it. With that said I look forward to reading further posts to hear how you did on the NCLEX examine but pass or fail I hope you realize that you nursing, although not your current reality, is so not merely a dream anymore. You are well on the path to going where ever nursing leads you. So chin up and pat yourself on the back. Of all the people who dare to dream, youre actually living it.
ReplyDeleteIt is such a shame that I am just now reading this comment two years later. That is so awesome and I really appreciate this comment. I did end up passing my test and I am currently back in school furthering my career in nursing! I'm stoked and I can't wait for the future.
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